Today was awesome, the best, sweet, cool, any other sysnonyms I can use?¿ So if anyone hasn't heard me and Lindsey are going out and I'm so happy and excited becuase I've liked her like since last year.... she prob. doesn't even remember this, but when I stayed after school with some other students and we had like that study session with Mrs. Brand for like her final or something like that and she sat behind me, I think. I just kinda turned around and saw her and was like man she is beautiful! I didn't know her then though so I was like just another person that I will probabily never meet again or like... heh guess I was wrong

Well I can't wait till tomorrow so I can see Lindsey, but other than that my AIM is still FUDGED UP! And my computer kept on freezing while I was trying to talk to her earlier.... which suxz.

Today was also a really good day becuase... it was a half day.. not really..., but yeah it was a half day, we did nothing in math, I had E lunch, and I'm slowly but surely catching up in drafting... which is quite amazing... 48.3%- 60.78%....(SHHH.... don't laugh I know it's barely a D, but I only have such a bad grade becuase I got behind and I'm making up a whole lot of drawings... 7 of them... I hope I can keep up becuase Mr. Dale is recommending me for Drafting II which is really a lot of fun becuase no more using a T-square >=P...wait by saying that, does it make me a drafting geek or nerd!?!¿! Hmmm... oh well at least I'm not a complete band geek Cough...Cough...Lid..cOugH.... LiNdSey. I'm just kiddin with ya girl. Anyways I'm pretty tired, I am actually in the process of making dinner( I hate cooking), but I'm good at it.... I guess other wise I wouldn't always have to make it. I also played some Basketball and read today( don't worry it was Assigned reading that I had to do).

Well thats about it so,

Byes everyone and lots of luvs to ya Lindsey

Ight well everything has been updated with some much tyter music and a new background pic that isn't all depressing and shiet. Today was interesting seeing as how I have new classes with only 5 weeks left before winter holiday and the end of the Semester... I know I was like WTF to.... but o well.

Well life is pretty good and things could be better but I can't really use the computer becuase the one that has AIM and my game and music files has no internet connection becuase my dad says he needs it to work on the main one(BS!!!! he's just keepin me from the comp... lol not workin to well is it?¿) However I'm suprised I was able to even update seeing as how the computer kept freezing every 5 minutes and I restarted it.... 1..2...5...8...13...17 times... no seriously I did... I hate my dads comp. but it's better than nothing. I can't download any software on it though otherwise I'll be grounded for a month =(

Eh well peace out everyone and I guess I'll start bloggin again seeing as how I haven't done it in so long.

Yo Peeps even the ones I dun know drop me some Propz

Peace...

Haven't updated or done shiet in quite a while, but oh wells I don't care... and I'm so tired of all this BS and crap at school and home and I got a lot on my mind and some things that need to be said, but they can't come out becuase they're good, but bad. However Halloween was pretty cool and I got a pic of my scrap/throw together Raggamuffin costume which I may put up , dunno.

Anyways I guess I have to go to school tomorrow which is gayness. I hate school with a passion which may be why grades have lowered from A's to B's.... eh I dun care any more cuz I can't make my friends or family happy anymore. I think I might start have manic depressive sendroms again and if I do I might as well just go jump off a cliff, becuase it's so gay when I get sad. I don't like to smile cuz thats the good side of me(lol).... man how can I have a good side. All this is just a rambling chatter coming to a rolling stop. I had nothing else to do, but I didn't feel like fully updating so I thought I might actually make a post.

Hey Everyone,

Well School has been pretty good this time around, except for my math class. It's the third 9 weeks and I already have a 67% in her class...

However I talked to her and she said that she knows I'm capable of passing easily and that I shouldn't worry but practuce and work harder since It's been 2 years since Algebra I. Anyways other than that though life is pretty good. I wish lunch could be a little more lively.....

It can be so boring at times and I'm just like....(-_-")

Anyways though , Geo, Jeremy, Josh, Jr, and maybe Brandon might be going to the movies tonight. We're gonna buy tickets for Hero and then sneak into Excersist instead. So I hope we do do something tonight....

Well got to go So I guess I'll blog again some other time

Peace and Luv, ^_^

I have been thinking about a question lately. "Who are you?" This is not just a question asked by me, but many of my friends that most do not know. I would like... to just to say the answer can not be given or I am the person standing next to you or right in front of you. However that is never the case.

For all that care... here is the answer to that question:

When people see me they see a person who is goofy to say the least and seems to mostly have no worries or cares about what people think or wonder. I am a friend that is always there and has always tried his very best to always give when he can before recieving... I carry many burdens with many consequences, but also many memories filled with happiness and joy. When people see me they see the shell of me with out realizing it. They never know when they are seeing the real me that is locked up inside the soul and mind. They often see someone who can be an asshole and then turn right around and be some one totally different. Someone that seems to have taken the path and hardships that they them selves have taken.  

The truth is that my inner self is so mysterious... I do not even understand it. I can only describe it as a person who loves and cares deeply for everyone yet at the same time his heart is cold and covered with ice. He feels no remorse until it is to late, but yet he would give his life for anyone at the mention of there death. My inner self is peace to be honest. He is the one that you see walking in the woods and sitting in trees. The one that will be wise and comfort, but yet he can not truly show the so called feeling of love. His heart is lost in the shadows and is slowly beating. My true self can rarely be seen to the fact that he is afraid not of anything mortal, but of a feeling.

I no longer truly even understand what I am typing any longer, but I just want everyone to know right now I am not sad or depressed.... but at peace and feel calm and have life flowing through me.

I believe it is time to go though however... so I will leave everyone with this. Life is always full of mystery and it can never be figured out but only understood by those that want to understand it.

I'm sure many will find this interesting to say the least, but many others might laugh as well I no longer care as I am beginning to take leave of my presence and the shell is beginning to come back out and take control....

Peace and Tranquility to all..,

My Inner Self